So today isn't even over and I'm already having a pretty shitty day. To begin the day - I'm almost late for work. I barely found any clean clothes as I've not had much time , or motivation when I've had time, to do laundry. Luckily I put something together I finally make it over there and it's not raining like I thought. You'd imagine that's a good thing but that will come in later. So I go in, talk to Brittany, which would be nice if I weren't supposed to be at work...then I get to work and that's normal work, though now I remember I forgot to tell Michael something about a coworker...

Then leaving work I thought things would be fine, I left and I started going down the hill leaving the library when my umbrella fell out of my purse. This would have been fine but I can't exactly stop bike going quickly downhill without falling off. So I had to finally stop and pick it up, then go back down. Not long thereafter, I dropped it again on my way to Krannert. T_T I FINALLY got there and went down to dhall to grab some food to go for breakfast. Not much left by then but I didn't wanna spend money when I have unspent meals.  Nothing worth it really down there. Not worth speaking of. Then I go to Evans for my 10am class. The floor was grody. People really need to clean up after themselves...

Class was o k...but I just couldn't pay attention. Lunch finally came, hurrah, but that flew by before I could even really get lunch. I grabbed candy to go, but in Ancient about half of that fell on the nasty floor from earlier. Blargh. And he mumbled most of the time. Seriously? That gets annoying after a point...I was so glad when that class was over...not to mention I dropped by umbrella twice trying to ride my bike from Krannert to Evans. Seriously? That wasn't too far away...

Then Choir where I got there 5 minutes late because of my damn bike...I felt like I was mentally gone and in there I found out my Zune is acting bonkers and won't turn on!!!! Ugh. I'm gonna lose it with that. Then there was on the way to World Music and I don't know how to *politely* tell Jess' dad and Jess that the damn bike is more trouble than it's worth. T_T It's causing so much crap. I have fallen off, almost fallen off, run into someone, almost gotten hit by several cars...also had the bike LOCK stolen, but not the bike, though it was moved as if someone tried to ride it, realized how crappy it was, then dumped it in a pile.

Once World Music finished, which I was 10 minutes late to because of the damn bike...and which I didn't pay any attention to at all...then I waited for the bus which I barely caught...then I waited around for like 20 minutes for a professor for him to show up. In the meantime I overheard a conversation about the fact that everyone is STILL freaking over the exorcism...even Fox News was here. Really? Come on now...this shouldn't have gone outside the campus. T_T Now they'll paint this place in an even worse light. Discussion went ok but I couldn't focus well.

So now I need to write a 2-3 page paper for Bailey. Then I've got to read for Theater Apprec. - a play, and two sections. I have to read them to understand so I can do as well as I freakin can on that quiz. I need it. Big time. Then I'll be done with stuff till fall break other than classes - World Religions and Choir, on Friday. Then my mother is picking me up at 4:30. It's embarrassing to still have to have my mom pick me up. ><

I'm stressed. I want to see people and no one is ever able to hang out or wants to. I'm lonely and on the verge of tears. Right now things suck. I called my mother to bitch and she told me to drop out of school. That's right. Senior year of college she told me to drop out. No way I'm going to do that but that was totally uncalled for and ridiculous. Seriously? SERIOUSLY?! Right now I'm hungry but I don't wanna eat. I'm fat enough as it is. I feel ugly and stupid. I want to just scream and cry right now.

And I wasn't asking for attention actually, I was just ranting. But I see another person I know, who's been not quite so polite to me before if we're using nice words, who has people encouraging her so much when she's down right now too. My response - why does it feel like sometimes no one cares? Or like the people who do are too busy to care? Or something. Yes I know some people care. It's been crammed into my head. But for a little while, sometimes, it's hard to remember that at all. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't wanna make anyone feel bad. I just want things to get better...

I really need to get used to lack of asleep again. Or more accurately I may need to learn to force myself to stay up past when I'm tired. I'd get so much more done that way. I'd be able to RP more, do all my homework, especially catching up on Ancient...>< Blarghies. But he'll give us those questions tomorrow so I'll be able to prepare well enough for all of them.

But seriously...why should I bother sleeping? I'd get more done, I wouldn't sleep my life away. I'd be able to learn how to cook maybe...random sounding I know. XD I've gotten too comfy w/ the summer sleep schedule. I need to remember that college students sleeping period should be a bloody luxury. I'm spoiled from summer. I'll learn it the hard way in November come when we're working on our Senior thesis. Anyhow, just needed to rant.